System shock

Tonight hasn't been an easy night, for those of you who don't know I am currently doing a CELTA course (a part time course so that I can teach English as a foreign language) and at my teaching practice tonight I didn't meet up to the mark. It was a vast improvement on my previous lesson and there are some easy and obvious issues that can easily be solved. However it does seam now that every time I love one problem I develop another! This whole course has not been made easier by the fact that I am dyslexic and so getting to grips with Grammar, to write clearly on the board and with some organisational skills.

So I am at a lose end, what if I don't pass this course? My plans for the next year will basically completely fall through, I won't be able to go abroad, I won't be able to teach around here and considering the way things are going at my current job I won't have a job and the issue of what job to do next will still be there.

It's all very funny though, only yesterday I was with some of the other members of the well and we were discussing the passage James 4:13-17

¹³Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." ¹⁴Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. ¹⁵Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." ¹⁶As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. ¹⁷Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins.

All very appropriate I'm sure you'll agree, I had been trusting in my on plans and to some degree boasting about them and felt certain they would occur, then all of a this happened. A complete system shock that means that the certainty I had in my ideas and what I would be doing is no longer certain.

Its not a certainty that I will fail this course but things do need to improve if I am going to pass. But its okay, if I fail then I have failed, luckily God is with me and with him I can deal with any failure that I make.

[Haven't done a blog post like this before what do you think about it? More like this?)